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Andrei – A True Story<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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Andrei, a 20 year old boy \u2013 as felt through the senses of the author \u2013 me.<\/p>\n

I am Andrei.<\/p>\n

I am invincible \u2013 almost.<\/p>\n

My heart is soft \u2013 and must be protected.<\/p>\n

Nature is safe and real \u2013 allowing the thoughts to flow.<\/p>\n

My art has meaning \u2013 goes beyond words.<\/p>\n

I live in the canyon, tucked away. Town is drawing me. It is Saturday.<\/p>\n

Music \u2013 friends \u2013 maybe a little \u201cpot\u201d \u2013 a deep conversation.<\/p>\n

Can we make the world a better place?<\/p>\n

Can I?<\/p>\n

Can I confine myself to the image this world portrays?<\/p>\n

Mystery.<\/p>\n

I dress warmly; a pack on my back with a change of clothes.<\/p>\n

I have to cross the river \u2013 as I have many, many times before.<\/p>\n

Tonight it flows fast and the rain is pouring.<\/p>\n

I enjoy the elements of nature.<\/p>\n

The wildness.<\/p>\n

The freedom it gives.<\/p>\n

I feel happy, uplifted.<\/p>\n

I will defy the waters, the rush of the river.<\/p>\n

I will pass \u2013 leave it behind.<\/p>\n

Go to where I\u2019m going.<\/p>\n

Part way across it gets me. Takes over \u2013 shows me its strength.<\/p>\n

I get pulled under \u2013 get stuck.<\/p>\n

Oh shit.<\/p>\n

I wasn\u2019t meant to cross \u2013 not here \u2013 not now.<\/p>\n

Frightened I call out \u2026<\/p>\n

We are alone \u2013 the river and I \u2013 in a battle of life and death.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m strong, I know I am \u2013 I used to beat Paavo in arm wrestling.<\/p>\n

I fight. A good fight it is \u2013 for a while.<\/p>\n

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Time stands still.<\/p>\n

The river shows its softness,<\/p>\n

Cradles me in its arms. Calms me.<\/p>\n

Tells me its story. Its story of eternity and of movement that is forever.<\/p>\n

Slowly I give in. Pictures fill the space. Beautiful, peaceful pictures.<\/p>\n

My body \u2013 numb \u2013 and no longer mine.<\/p>\n

I move away. Stand aside. Look at my strong, young figure, \u2013 stuck.<\/p>\n

I reach my mom \u2013 softly wrap myself around her heart. \u2013 She receives me.<\/p>\n

My Dad, my siblings, my friends, I touch.<\/p>\n

I dissipate into all-ness.<\/p>\n

I am. \u2013 Somewhere I am.<\/p>\n

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Zitta – written on April 12th<\/sup>, 2005<\/span><\/p>\n

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