You are scared
that by cleaning up
your drawers
you will find the roaches
in the corners
I am scared
that by cleaning up
my drawers
I will find emptiness
– clean and orderly emptiness
I am scared
that if I speak
I’ll never stop
and will lose all
– we both will
I am scared
that if I speak my words
the feelings
my feelings
will get lost
in the words
I am scared
that being unhappy together
is better than being alone
I am scared
that if I open my heart
– and eyes
– to the tears
we will all drown
Zitta 2021